I get ya, man. I really do. I kinda been where you're at.
I had a Honda Goldwing F6B once. The entire world, literally, goes on and on about how reliable that bike is.
Not for me though. I blew that tranny out the 1st time at 14,000 miles. On this, a bike who dozens and dozens put over 500,000 miles on.
Musta been a fluke. Dealer repaired under warranty and I'm back on the road. Guess what happened at 31,000 miles? Yep. 2nd blown tranny.
Dealer repaired again... but now like you, I'm suspicious of it. To the point I couldn't enjoy it. I started to change my riding habits. I didn't ride as often. Etc. Etc.
I ended up trading that bike a few miles later at 45,000. I think it was fine but the suspicion made me question every little thing.
I'm now on a different bike and couldn't be happier.
What I took from that experience is nothing can be solved from the keyboard. And I had the luxury of speaking with a much deeper and longer-term community of Goldwing owners.
My dealer offered a solution and I took it. Nothing more can be done. If it's fixed, well hallelujah happy camper.
If not, I accept that the world isn't perfect. You are Army, man. Adapt and overcome.